No… that’s not Athena in the photo … that is me… a few years ago…
Yea I know…
it’s kind of something I kept quiet… scared of feeling lame, and pathetic and stupid… But, you know… it happened… it did… why hide it, why pretend… ????
The reason I share this is because I thought of this picture as I caressed my kitty, Athena, tonight as I settled in to fall asleep…
I got hurt a while ago, but I seriously think my cat was hurt worse than I … she was hit by a golf club, thrown against the wall, and so brutalized that she retreated under the bathroom cabinet… never leaving… not even to go to the bathroom… that poor cat was traumatized…
Yea… I was too… I remember one night in a hotel… just my kitty and me… scared to death of being found… scared of not living another day… it was a bad time…
But, that is now in the past…
I watch my sweet kitty, Athena, today… she has responded to love… to my caresses…. to good treatment and straight up love… I hate what happened to her… even more than I hate what happened to me… But, like Athena, I have been loved on too… I’ve been caressed and loved back to healing… not only from the people in my life who love me, but from a greater love… my defender and the lover of my soul… ah, by Jesus!!! He has loved on me…
I KNOW that God is the greatest healer of all… I know that Athena and I were surrounded by angels on those days of despair, and pain, and unimaginable fear in California…
And, ah, my sweet, defenseless kitty… I know how I felt for my cat on those days… and I can only imagine how my savior felt for me on those same days…
Athena and I are good today and we forgive the one who hurt and scared us so…
Why???
Because he was hurt and scared, too … never, ever think that people who lash out in anger and violence are without hurt and fear themselves! I’ve prayed for this man… I forgive this man… I relate to him and empathize… and I hope that my Jesus is so loving on him!!!
Going to sleep now… remembering and thanking God for love and mercy… I share this not to garner attention to myself, but to share how GREAT is my God!!! He is AMAZING!! And I love him so much… he who can save not only me, and my cat, but those who hurt us, as well!!!
PRAISE GOD!!
BTW, isn’t this the sweetest song ever?
Listening to it as I fall asleep…
You know, we all get hurt… and yet we all have the ability to heal by the love and grace of our savior … I’m grateful my kitty is alright today, despite what she went through…
… yea… I’m grateful I am too…
Thank you Jesus!
Here they are … Athena, and my puppy, Cosi! Happy at last… we are an AWESOME trio!! =)
Nighty Nite…
October 4, 2013 at 10:54 pm
just want you to know that i love ya sister!!
October 4, 2013 at 11:12 pm
I know that Rick! We got HIStory!! =)
October 5, 2013 at 10:17 am
Pam, my heart breaks for you at that time! Even though I know you and I were never close friends in high school, it has been great to get to know you though these posts and see your heart. It has also been fantastic to see you grow in your relationship with the Lord and see His love for you! I’ve been a lifelong Christian but didn’t show it like i should have in high school…I was a coward. No more!
Susie and I have gone through a lot in 32 years of marriage, but never in a million years would I ever hit her and I have a righteous anger for anyone that would do that to a woman. I have always had a heart for “vigorous” prayer and recently God has directed me to be even more, ah, shall we say, “aggressive” in my prayer life, praying for those who are being victimized by others. I recently wrote a contract of my dedication to His calling in my life…
“I am a WARRIOR in God’s army, a DESTROYER of Satan’s forces, and a defender of injured souls. I will defend TO MY LAST BREATH those that cannot fight for themselves.”
You are away from the danger, and God’s peace is upon you! Susie and I have added you to our daily prayer list and we pray that His blessings and mercy will be upon you!
God Bless You, Pam!
In His name,
Glenn
October 5, 2013 at 5:35 pm
Thank you Glenn!! We definitely need more defenders in this world!! Blessings!! =)
October 5, 2013 at 1:49 pm
Thank you for sharing your experience. Will be thinking about it all day today!
October 5, 2013 at 5:16 pm
God allows us to experience what is needed for HIS greater glory. Thank you for continuing to live through HIM and sharing your pain and joy for HIS purpose. May your sufferings from the past allow others to stand up and heal. A dear friend just shared this with me … Hurt people Hurt others, Healed people Heal others …. God bless you Pam and you continue to Heal others!!! xoxoxo
October 6, 2013 at 4:24 am
Thank you Angela!! Love that quote!! xoxo